Hiya!

Churh was fun yesterday. But I was so sick from eating Ponak's yesterday. Then night service. That was fun too. I hung out with Stevie a lot. And talked to Derek a lot. And Devin was there. That's a few times in a row. That's awesome. I miss him.

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I need to get workin on that Sex in a Pan for Jon.

Ummmm I'm bored. Meh Goodies song doesn't work so now I have milkshake up there. Ummm I'mma go.

x Amy x

Hiya!

Okay so I really hope hannah gets me the new Destiny's Child cd for xmas/bday. I loooooove Lose My Breath. It's sooooo good to dance too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTYN! That's right, it's Tons of Fun's bday today! Everyone tell him happy bday!

I love dancing. It's fuuuun. And I think it's the only reason I've noticed meh stomach gettin littler. Cause that's the only thing I'm doing differently. Except meh lunches have been less healthy.

Well there shouldn't be anymore boy drama for awhile, which I'm sure is pretty good for all of you who are completely sick of my whining. I've decided to just look towards the future with this. I mean I know EXACTLY (well pretty much exactly) what I want meh boy to look and act and be like! Y'know 'the one' and I haven't found it yet. So when it comes, I'll totally know and I'll be so happy that I can give all of me to him. Cause I've gotten back what I gave to Kevin...well most of it. So yeah. I'll be waiting...very impatiently I might add...but I'll still wait.

Maddy, I do listen to your advice. I may not take it directly all the time, but it does affect me. Usually in a good way. I mean looky here, I'd still be either depressed or in a wrong relationship right now if it weren't for you. I love you to pieces! You're amazing!

So I really need to write. I mean I have meh girl chara planned...minus clothes...gotta figure those out still. But I really want to write. I'm not sure if I'mma continue writing a sequel and third book to MoH or not though. I mean the kind of story I want to write just won't go good with following that book, cause it'll be like 10x better than that! Which would be weird to read. One pretty good book followed by two amazing ones. Just weird. So yeah. People pray for me about my writings. Thanks.

All my good cartoons are on tonight! Most of em weren't on last weekend, but they're on tonight! Yes! I'll bet I get some inspiration from them.

Does someone want to by me the dvd of Read Or Die (it's an anime movie) for xmas? That'd be awesome. LoL.

Jon's not on now either. Blah...bored! Hyper and bored.

Dude...I like this. I like having my ever-cheerfulness back. I missed it! Hahah yes!

My g-mas bday is tomorrow. We have to go to her house at like 3. So I can't hang out between services unless someone wants to bring me home by then. That sux.

Okay that's all. I'm done. I'll go...for now!

Quote of the Day: "Aww Goldy has sores on her necks...neck..." -- Me talkin to sister.

Goodies By Ciara ft. Petey Pablo

My Goodies, My Goodies, My Goodies
Not my goodies! Ow!

I got a sick reputation for handlin broads
All I need is me a few seconds or more.
And in my rap
Tell valet to bring my 'Lac
And I ain't comin back
So you can put a car right there.
I'm the truth
And ain't got nothin' to prove.
An you can ask anybody
Cuz they seen me do it.
Barracades, I run right through 'em
I'm used to 'em.
Throw all the dirt you want it's no use.
You still won't have a pinup in a fabulous room
On her back pickin' out baskets of fruit.
(I love you boo)
Yeah freak and Petey love you too.
Ha Ha
You know how I do..

You may look at me and think that I'm
Just a young girl
But I'm not just a young girl.
Baby this is what I'm lookin' for:
Sexy, independent, down to spend it type that's gettin' his dough
I'm not bein too dramatic that's the way I gotta have it.

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Cause I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

Just because you drive a Benz
I'm not goin home with you.
You won't get no nookie or the cookies
I'm no rookie.
And still I'm
Sexy, independent
I ain't ready so you already know.
I'm not bein too dramatic that's the way I gotta have it
Just cause I'm thick
Tryna hit
But I'm not dumb
I'm not bein too dramatic it's just how I gotta have it

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Cause I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

So damn hot but so young.
Still got milk on ya tongue
Slow down lil one
And you ain't got it all
Hey shawty
You think you bad but you ain't bad
I'll show you what bad is.
Bad is when you capable of beatin' the baddest.
I been workin' at it since I came to this planet
And I ain't quite there yet but I'm gettin' better at it.
Matter of fact,
Lemme tell it to you one mo' again
All I got to do is tell a girl who I am (Petey!)
Ain't naa chick in here dat I can't have
Bada boom bada bam ba bam!

You're insinuating that I'm hot 
Want these goodies boy are not
Just for any of the many men that's tryna get on top.
No you can't call me later
And I don't want your number.
I'm not changin' stories
Just respect the play I'm callin'.

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Cause I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

I bet you want the goodies.
Bet you thought about it.
Got you all hot and bothered.
Cause cuz I talk about it.
Lookin for the goodies
Keep on lookin' cuz they stay in the jar
Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh Oh-oh

Uh...Yeah...Uh...Yeah Uh Uh Uh

Currently Playing Destiny Fulfilled By Destiny's Child Lose My Breath see related

Hiya!

Okay so nothing much has happened. I went over to Beka’s last night. That was awesome. We watched ‘How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days’. So cute! My parents started bitching at me as soon as I got home. I hafta stay after for Kendall tonight, then I’ll probably come into Mrs. Stark’s room afterwards.

Jon didn’t get to sit by us today. Too bad. He’s fun. Hahah I’mma give him some sex in a pan for xmas ^_- heck yes I am!

I left a comment/chatter box message to Miranda last night. I dunno if I should be getting into it. But I am. I wish I knew the whole story of what happened *hint hint*

Okay well this is a short entry but it’s my lovely update. Sorry it’s so short.

Quote of the Day: “So when do I get that sex in a pan?” “When do you want it?” “Can I have it today…how about now?” – Me and Jon

Lyrics of the Day: “I bet you want my goodies, bet you thought about it. Got you all hott and bothered, because I talk about it…”-- Goodies -- Ciara

Lyrics of the Day 2: " Goodies make the boys jump on it..."-- 1,2 Step -- Ciara

>>>EDIT<<<

Okay well my sister totally made me feel like crap. She's giving me crap and all "you're clothes aren't fitting you very well" and gave me a disgusted look. I mean I know she thinks I'm a slut, but that's like flat out calling me fat! And my mom has told me I look disgusting before too. Just cause a lil of meh stomach was showing. I mean I totally don't like how I look, but there's just some things that aren't meant to be said, y'know?

People piss me off.

Hiya!

So...I'm ok. Not really. I'm totally lying to you guys, but oh well. I do that well with this.

Okay, am I the only one with this problem? I mean have you guys ever been in a long, serious relationship and lost it. And then whenever you start to like someone else all you can think about is the other person? The one that hurt you and ruined your life?

Yeah I have that problem. A lot. I mean...well...I can't explain it. I can...but I won't. Not on here. Guess I'm not worth it anyways. I guess I can understand. I mean I am fat and ugly, no one wants that. But...cocky as this may be...I'd be a good gf. I dunno. I'm stupid. I shouldn't care. But I do. I hate being lonely. It's the only thing I can't stand. I mean I'm a loner, and I like solitude to an extent...but being alone and being lonely is different. I mean I'm lonelier around all my friends.

omigoodness...I need so much. I think I'm beyond help, even from my psyciatrist (Derek). But...I'm glad me and him did talk last night. Had nothing to do with me, I think he only told me cause Hannah wasn't there for him to tell. Kinda makes me feel used, but he still confided in me.

Gah I hate this. Everytime I start to like someone this happens. Well I'm always like this, but it's even worse when I like someone. And why is it that I can never find a someone that fits my view of 'the one'? Gah I'm always going to frickin be alone! Always!

I don't understand. I mean there's girls there that are more unattractive than me, bigger than me, but they still have these gorgeous bf's. And most of them are bitches too. Whatever I'm going to leave you with this song, it really is like how I felt a while a go, and when I think of him...but just listening to it it's like how I feel...just the music.

Burn By Usher

Girl, understand why
See, this's burnin' me to hold onto this
I know this is somethin' I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm tryin' to say is that
I love you
And just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And it's better for me to
Let it go now
Than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's going to burn for me to say this
It's coming from my heart
It's been a long time comin'
But we done been fell apart
I really want to work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
I think it's best if we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm burning, baby
I ain't happy, baby
Plus there are so many other things I got to deal with
I think that you should

Let it burn
When the feeling ain't the same in your body
Don't want to, but you know
Got to let it go
'Cause the party ain't jumpin like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn, let it burn, Got to let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of your being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn

I'm sending pages ain't suppose to
I got somebody here but I want you
'Cause the feeling ain't the same
I find myself calling her your name
Ladies, tell me do you understand
Now all my fellas can you feel my pain
It's teh way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't coming back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do without my boo
You been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days
Umm-teen hours
I'mma be burnin'
Till ya return

Let it burn
When the feeling ain't the same in your body
Don't want to, but you know
Got to let it go
'Cause the party ain't jumpin like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn, let it burn, Got to let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of your being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn

I'm twistes cause one side of me
Is tellin me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
Ooh ooh
I'm twisted cause one side of me
Is tellin me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh
Can you feel me burnin'
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh
So many days so many hours
I'm till burnin' till you return

Let it burn
When the feeling ain't the same in your body
Don't want to, but you know
Got to let it go
'Cause the party ain't jumpin like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn, let it burn, Got to let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of your being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn